I've wondered for sometime now why it is that insecurities and self esteem issues overall are less talked about as women get older, like the struggle to practice self love and care fades in due time. And that may be true for some women, but for others such as myself, I've wondered why we can't be open about that as much as we were in grade school, for example. I feel like there's a growing number of empowerment among young girls, which is of course much needed and powerful, but women beyond their teenage years don't seem to have as many options to discuss things such as body positivity. I feel like there's not a lot of open discussions among young women about self image, because it may be embarrassing for some of us to admit that we may find it difficult to love ourselves at times. The impact of how I for one am perceived based off ethnicity, skin color, height, hair length, etc. definitely has the potential to shape how I look at myself in the mirror. Self esteem issues don't just leave you once you're out of grade school and grow into an adult. I feel like that's a common, widespread belief toward women: that we're too grown up to feel not so good about how we look sometimes, that we should've out grown being victims of the lie that we have to look like the women in mainstream media to feel the absolute best about ourselves. But those issues don't just leave if they've been present for a long time - for me those issues started in middle school and some exist today. I know everyone doesn't always have the easiest time recognizing their uniqueness and understanding that nothing is wrong with how you look, it's social conditioning that's twisted. But if we're not careful, we start believing the lies of if we don't look anything like a typical celeb we must not look good at all. My long term goal is to own how I naturally look by practicing mindfulness and positive self talk - I need not rush the process, because loving the God in me should trickle down to loving how he created me. Self love is a journey rather than a destination. I'm not too much of this or not enough that - I was created to be made in God's image: perfectly balanced, just right.